I teach and encourage people to stop hurting themselves and be happy, using the mind-training of A Course in Miracles.
All sickness, problems, pain and difficulties come from your thoughts, beliefs, grievances and old ideas about yourself and the world. When you change your mind, the world you think you see changes along with it.
I invite people to watch their thoughts, feelings, words, emotions, beliefs (watch yourself like a hawk) and then recognize “Is it love or fear?”
If it’s love, you know it. You’re in an experience of joy, gratitude, generosity, happiness, peace, appreciation, enthusiasm – and everything is easy and effortless.
If it’s fear, usually you don’t know it. You’re experiencing anger, guilt, shame, blame, unhappiness, depression, criticism, doubt, hurt, upset – and everything is difficult and confusing.
Whichever it is, you’re doing it to yourself. Once you see what you are doing, you can choose and decide if you want to continue with the thought or belief that’s hurting you … or let it go.
I’m the creator of The 40-Day Program for Transformation – an online free program available to anyone who is ready for a new beginning, which guides people through this watching and noticing.
I’m the author of Gorgeous for God, my personal story of awakening.
I have devoted my life to love, God and Jesus Christ (and I have zero religious upbringing – unless you count going to a Methodist church on Easter and Christmas a religious upbringing, because I sure don’t).
At the age of 32, I was living in New York City and by all appearances “had it made”. I was working a great job in publishing, I had a beautiful apartment in Park Slope, Brooklyn, awesome friends, a regular paycheck, paid vacations, travel & road trips, 2 degrees, a 401K and all the other things we are told one should have to be happy and successful. But deep down, I was confused, fearful, unhappy and mostly bored. I was a functioning alcoholic, and everyone just thought I was a fun party girl. I wanted my life to have purpose & meaning. I wanted to feel alive, while at the same time wanting to be able to just, well, RELAX. My whole life up to that point was about striving, goal-seeking, working hard, getting through the day (so I could get home to my vodka/tonics) and holding the whole thing together, giving the appearance that “all is well. I’m fine.”
I wasn’t “fine”. I was tired. Everything felt overwhelming, like a life going nowhere fast.
On July 4, 2000 – during a long 4th of July weekend – I stood in my living room in Brooklyn and called out to God. It was a Tuesday. I said: God. Here I am. If you’re here, I’m all yours. I want to work for you from now on.
I had no idea what I was saying or even if God was real, but after that my life did a 360 degree turn. I got fired from that great job in publishing 6 days later – on July 10, 2000 – and felt that “I’d been hired by God.” I had no idea what that meant, but I felt excited. I had no idea what I was going to do for money or how I was going to pay my rent or bills, but I felt that I was going to be okay. God just hired me! I didn’t know what that meant or what I was supposed to do, but I had an idea that I would be shown my next steps. A year later, I moved to Wisconsin to be with a Master Teacher at Endeavor Academy along with 250 others who felt a calling like me to leave their life behind. I was there almost 10 years and it was one of the best gifts I ever gave myself – to be with someone who was reflecting to me perfectly my own Christ nature. During that time I got married and 8 years later, we divorced. All I remember is happiness of that time. I was ordained as a minister. In 2010, I moved back to my home-state of New Hampshire and fell in love with a guy named Bill Free. We got married in 2013 and moved to Maine. That’s “my story” and it’s free of all emotional charge. That’s the beauty of transformation. It removes all the baggage and fear and negativity from your memories and from your stories and all you’re left with is love.
Since that moment on July 4, 2000, my dedication is: FATHER, I AM ALL YOURS.
I don’t have a plan except to “Listen, Follow and Trust.”
My life is devoted to healing and to God.
I made a commitment to DO A Course in Miracles (not just read it, but use, practice and apply the ideas). Suddenly I wanted to learn everything I possible could about Jesus, healing and transformation. I became very much fascinated in THE SCIENCE of healing: things that can be done with the same results, all the time. I started reading the bible – the New Testament – at 33. I tried reading the Old Testament, but just wasn’t interested. Instead I read metaphysical books about the bible and the metaphysics of the bible stories – and I got to the point where people began to think of me as an expert on the bible. That really makes laugh OUT LOUD – LOL – to be known as someone who is metaphysics expert on the bible – that is just so funny to me – but it’s true – I know bible stories and I know how they relate to our lives and I have a way of making them interesting and fascinating.
My teacher is Jesus, the guy who walked the earth 2000 years ago who is available to everyone, who is with you always … here and now. The mind that was in Christ Jesus is in you. Turn within and there he is, the Love you Are, just waiting for you to acknowledge “him” – this Presence and Power, which is what you are in truth.
I love Jesus. I everything about him. I love his boldness, his compassion, I love the simple way he lived his life, I love his generosity, his patience and his public love of God. I love his message and the directness of his teachings. Love God. Love Your Neighbor as Yourself.
Love. Give. Forgive.
My life turned around in every department – not immediately – but slowly over time. I know for certain that change for some people can happen immediately and automatically and all-at-once (I’ve seen it happen) but for me it was a slow process because apparently that’s the speed I needed to take it. The alcoholism disappeared first, back in 2001. I quit smoking cigarettes. I started to feel happy. Then I started to feel not so afraid, which led me to do bold things. I made decisions all over the map: to drop guilt, to drop blame, to overcome fear, to stop complaining and criticizing and attacking (myself and others). I realized that you can literally drop anything by a decision to do so.
I didn’t have any mystical experiences. I have led a very ordinary life. I didn’t hear voices. No near-death experience. No going into the light. No seeing angels. I’m not channeling Jesus. I’m not psychic. I don’t have special abilities. I just did what A Course in Miracles instructed me to do and my life transformed. I have dedicated my life to telling people about A Course in Miracles because I know no one needs to be sick or suffer.
I invite people to drop their stories, drop their grievances, let go of fear, release guilt, blame, criticism, complaining. When you do this, you become aware of love’s presence.
Healing occurs when you take 100% responsibility for everything that seems to happen to you. You take 100% responsibility for your thoughts. You have a willingness to see things differently, to look at your fear, judgment and doubt and actually do something about it.
You have a willingness to look at your own criticism, condemnation and lack of love. Most people have no idea how they are causing all their problems, sickness and difficulties. They don’t realize they are doing it to themselves.
Healing is a complete reversal of the way you think, the way you live, the way you treat yourself, the way you treat others, the way you show up.
“Sickness is isolation. Sickness is a retreat from others, and a shutting off of joining. It becomes a door that closes on a separate self, and keeps it isolated and alone.” -A Course in Miracles
As you let go of isolation, your belief in separation, you experience healing. Sickness is a retreat from others, from yourself and from God.
In the separated state, there is anger, resentment, self-hatred which is mostly unconscious. All healing is a willingness to go in a new direction (in your thinking), to love yourself, to let go of grievances, to love yourself and to love others.
Healing is accomplished as you change your mind about yourself.